long times ago....when i was 19....or 20.... n still "study...ermmm..i love to use this word.."skolah" dont know why..i suka sebut skolah..even that time im at collage...., n...on my way to my"skolah" i will and always pass by this road...tempat org2 seni ..pencinta agung berkarya..melepak..or memerhati kan manusia..., so..everysingle day.. myself..mesti bertembung dgn mamat ni...busker..i dont know his name until today... so bad huh..?? i lalu jln tue almost 4years everyday...n he always teasin me with his "puisi gila" (i call that puisigila sbb mmg gila..;p)...n this guy...everytime dia nampak i..mesti dia akan jerit kuat2 nama i.. he create 1 name for me... so silly huh..?? he call me.."hurtangel" im so mad n really hate him..that time... pernah i tanya ..ade tk jln lain selain jln tue... yes they got another roads..tp jauh pusing..that the easiest road.. damn...so what happen to me..?? hari2 stresss..(am i..? not so sure) 1 times...something happen to me... i was away for 12weeks.....tragedy...in mylife..n real scars in my soul..lost my first love..its killin me ..:( but life move on..so im back to my"skolah' again...as usual.. but this time i didnt see him around...so its was kinda cool for me..tkde si "pencintagila" dgn "puisigila" ganggu i..., but its not lasting... after few days..i saw him again... n that time....that a last time i see him... n that time jugak..he throw me this words.... " KATAKU..SENYUM MU TERPATRI DI HATIKU..MENEMBUSI TEMBOK INGATAN..MELEWATI JURANG RASAKU DAN RUANGMU..,DAN KETIKA SENYUM MU MATI..SELURUH JIWA RAGA MU BAGAI KAN TIDAK MAHU DAN TAK INGIN BANGKIT LAGI,BIAR PUN ADA SEJUTA SENYUM YANG MELAKAR SETIAP PAGI..KAMU PARI YANG AMAT KESAKITAN..BAGI AKU SATU PELUANG ..AKU PASTI KAMU TIDAK AKAN SEKALI MENYESAL..AKU INI MEMUJA KAMU AKU INI INGIN MENJADI PELINDUNG JIWA MU..BUKA HATI MU KEKASIH HATI..AKU MERAYU KAMU" itu kata si dia..tpi mungkin sbb i sgt shock..i replied him with this sentence.."take back all your sweet words and empty promises.." itu kata ku...,but dia tak marah...dia senyum..for the first time..i see that smile..its really something...and with that sweet smile..he said...you are my "hurtangel" n dia ambik tangan i ..dia bagi green pendant (jade) n said.."aku pasti memerhati kan kamu melalui..batu hijau tu" and he walkaway...after that day..i never see him anymore...no more....mula2 rasa peaceful..tp 1 day..i dpt tahu..si"pencintagila" tu dah tkda..he pass away ....paru2 berair.. itu kali kedua i kehilangan...sampai hari nie...i still cant believe that..weird but true..i tk tahu mana grave dia..nama dia...apa2 pun tentang dia..until today jugak..i masih pakai greenpendant tu...n that nickname he used to call me.."hurtangel" jadi sgt sebati dgn hidup i..., until today jugak i masih lagi simpan kertas ni...kertas yg dia tulis "puisigila" tu..., he gave me something...something that i cant explain... but thats all... he gave me something..something that nobody can give...
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